There are times that you suddenly decide to be grumpy at anyone. And when I ask you why, you get grumpier. You make this sound between a "Hmp!" and a growl. Yes, anak, you growl since the age of two (turning three). Your papa and I laugh and I wonder silently if I'm raising you right.
When I offer you some form of bribe just so you would stop being grumpy, you seem to get grumpier too. It's like a losing battle for me. You are so incoherent when you're mad. Mommy cannot seem to understand a thing you are saying. It's like your whining and huffing and puffing and growling.
But then I found a way through that grumpiness. Every time you huff and you puff (like the wolf in Three Little Pigs tale), I make that funny face and gestures (well, I think they're funny) to make you see that your anger affects mommy. Bribing never works for you. I have to get weird in order to make you smile. You really are a handful.
Your papa does something else. When you get mad, he gets annoyed. And he gets mad. He pretends that he doesn't want to talk to you (because you say so yourself - You don't want to talk to him). Now that's a battle you have been losing because once papa decides he doesn't want to talk to you, that's when you try to convince him that he wants to talk to you. I hear you say to him, "Sorry papa" at the age of 2 (turning three). And it's so cute.
On a side note: this morning when we were on our way out of the house (because I'm dropping you off at your grandma's house), you said out loud "I love you mama". Thank you anak. "I love you too!"
Well, I hope that you will grow less and less grumpy. When you make your own decisions, decide on being happy.
Your own happiness is up to you. Be happy with yourself. Do not rely on anyone (even momma and papa) to make you happy. We cannot do that for you. We always try but in reality anak, it has been always up to you.
I truly hope that when you grow older, you'll grow wiser and more content than ever. I don't want you to be like those people I have encountered who wallow in their losses or sadness or misfortune. GET PAST THEM. Don't stay in that point on your life when you have been deceived, when you have failed. You are still one of the human race. Failure is part of being human. Losing something or somebody is part of being human. And moving on may be the hardest thing for you but since are human, you are equipped to do so.
Your papa and I are raising you not with the luxuries money (which we don't have) can buy, but with the necessities that will able you to grow as normal and as tough as can be. I don't want you to be tough at all times, but be tough if you have to. You can run to me, your papa or God at the end of the day. Our loving arms are always waiting for you.
Be happy. That is all.
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