Your Lola Mommy

You (and your cousin, Gab) are so very special to your Lola Mommy.  Did you know that at this time that she is battling with cancer and the complications that followed (or should I say piled up), you are her source of strength and most importantly, calm?  She loves you both very much.

She couldn't get it from herself but she finds it in you - the strength to go on and the calm of acceptance.

She always wants you to be around.  She even goes to the extent of bribing you with toys to make you stay in her place longer.  And of course, you appreciate it.  But at this young age, you only appreciate the colourful gifts but not yet the one who gave them to you.

She thinks of your future like it was her own.  She is planning your life already like how she did to me.  It is both good and bad.  It is good because the future she wants to push for you is a "perfect" one.  It is also bad because if ever she builds it in her head and heart, it would be hard for her to accept that you will make your own plans someday (which I will allow).  She dreams for both of you.  More intensely than your very own parents.  I guess there will be a greater chance of disappointing her than us.

In the future, I hope that you can say to her how grateful you are for watching over you, for thinking of you, for spending time with you.    And I hope that you will find within yourself all that she finds and aspires in you.  She sees only the good in you.  That's how much she loves and adores you.